Music… (The most diverse category you will ever read…)

What I can jam out to: Fun. Kenny Chesney. Tim Mcgraw. Bruce Springsteen. Paramore. Of Monsters and Men. Lady Antebellum. Eric Church. (See more in Music to Drown Out the Sound)

What I can use to escape and for performances:

SHOW TUNES!!! Seriously take your best shot, name a song, i know it!

Ramin Karimloo, Sierra Boggess, Hugh Panaro, Samantha Barks, Sutton Foster, SMASH, etc.

I’m simply a girl who lives for the jersey shore and for the music that defines an experience and the people that join in  the journey.

I go with the flow in everything but fashion, I’m not afraid to not dress my age.

Role Models are two VERY different people: Sierra Boggess and Jenna Marbles.

Sierra inspires me to follow my dreams and Jenna inspires me to not give a _____.

 But my true hands on, always there, role model is my best friend, Dana.

“I’ve noticed that a lot of things in my “me” tag are pretty depressing and that doesn’t describe me at all. Since 2011 I’ve changed so much, and I’m developing into a person. Normal high school stuff. But I think of myself as recovered now. I graduated from a DBT program last Wednesday, I can get out of the bed in the morning, I can stay in school for the entire day, I can almost kinda do my homework and keep up my grades, but most importantly I’m content doing it all. I think my main problem was lack of motivation, and inspiration. My parents said when I was a kid I just showed so much creativity that has disappeared throughout the years. I’ve come to terms that I’m gonna be the girl behind the camera, not in front of it; and I’m completely comfortable being that girl. I “discovered” Charlavail about two years ago. To say that she changed my life would be an understatement. By following her and Sam Desantis’ work I’ve found ambition in working as hard as they do, and working towards your goals no matter how many set backs you come across. This year I started doing stage crew for my high school. The one thing I go to school for, no matter what. Through this I’ve met so many talented and amazing people and I’m forever grateful that I got to be a part of the experience. The most important person there to me is our Creative Directer, basically our set designer. He’s my age, how impressive is that? Just watching him work, and how much he loves the work we do, and how he puts up with so much just so he can come to crew for a few hours is astonishing. It feels amazing to be a part of this group, working together, and seeing the outcome. I love my crew, I’ve never felt more accepted and loved by a group of people. I’m discovering my likes and dislikes. I know I’m an artist. What kind? I’m not sure yet. Photography, Poetry, Writing, Television, Painting, Technology, I wanna try it all. I’m so excited for the next two years of high school and I’m sad that my first year was wasted being sad. But I learned a lot from freshman year, and I know that everything happens for a reason, and that I have to live without regrets. I still have a lot to work on, but I’m proud of myself and I’m hopeful. And that’s what matters. I’m gonna try and post some better things too, so Thank You.”

The blonde and the quote above is my beautiful, wonderful best friend everybody. She has quietly been through so much and she makes me so proud. Even with the amount of pain she has gone through, she puts others before herself and she has been my best friend for the longest time and me loosing her would mean loosing 99% of myself. She has helped me through on going heart break with love that not teenage boy could match and she has helped me see through different eyes. We’re not sappy teenagers (and if we are, god bless us). We have gone through hell together and we’ve kept on going and now we’re just brushing the rubble off our shoulders and inviting everyone to join our little roller coaster of teen angst. I love her and will never know anyone quite as strong willed, beautiful and adventurous as she is. She is my renegade and I am her catcher in the rye.

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I have this thing. I don’t really know if its weird or not. But i can relate so many different songs to my life in way that Im not completely sure is okay. Its at the point where certain songs can make me sad, but others can make me wanna spread my arms out the sunroof of my car. Like for instance, the entire Some Nights album (Fun.) is my crazy, heartbroken, dancing-like-a-child life. It makes me happy, I makes me be able to pour my heart out over and over and over again without anyone truly understanding. It keeps me sane.

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Wanna see a little bit of me?

The brunette all the way to the left…. always the brunette